Hello everyone. I thought I would share my horror story with you and hopefully offer a different perspective.
2 years ago, I met the love of my life. 1 year ago, I met his demons. Some people embrace this idea and some don't. But I tell ya, it's true!
So, my fiance is an addict of 20 years off and on. When I met him he left that little part out. I am oblivious to drugs, addicts, and any of that insane lifestyle. I've been forced to look at it.
Right before his relapse, I started seeing things around the house. I woke up one night to see a gargoyle shadow cast on my wall. It was alarming. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I immediately grabbed my holy water and blessed the area.
Things became increasingly weird. I began to see a man (not a good guy) hanging about. An awful smell would precede his coming. I was constantly blessing my house and it would be balanced for a little bit but then things would come back.
The first time I experienced crazy behavior with my fiance was in the car. He believed in his doped up mind that I had "dissed" him in front of a coworker. He became psychotic and terrorized me for over an hour. He began to drive erratic, he was yelling, he said things that left me frozen with shock that they came out of his mouth.
I told him to take me home. I was quiet on the way home because I did not know who or what had taken over my fiance. I had never seen him like this.
When we got home he was completely different. He was humble and crying. I was furious. I told him that if he didn't go to see a counselor, we would be done. He cried and agreed to go. Mind you, I thought he was bipolar, not Meth'd out of his mind.
Things were okay for a week or two and I found forgiveness. I wrote down everything he had done and he read it daily, to remind him of the monster he became.
Almost parallel to his behavior was a horror house forming in my peaceful abode. I constantly saw demonic looking faces in shapes and on mirrors. I was angry because I didn't know how they were getting past my blessings. They were never able to do that before. Then I realized they were hitching a ride on my fiance. Negative entities and demons can only get in if you "invite" them in. I was inviting my fiance in and they came with him.
After a night of horror and upset, I asked him if he was on drugs. He said yes. I asked what he had been taking and he said Meth. My entire being changed that day. I can't believe I was so naive to this lifestyle, that I didn't realize he was doing something so hard core. I told him he needed to leave immediately. I felt so incredibly fooled and hurt. He reluctantly left with tears. I watched a broken man walking down the street. It was tragic.
His demons went with him. I told him he had to stay somewhere else until he gets serious help. I also needed more information because I knew nothing about this hideous drug.
The next year was a nightmare. Nightmare is an under statement because with a nightmare you can wake up from.
He grew worse. He became incredibly hateful and did the typical addict move of blaming me. I am a spiritual person and I practice my spirituality daily. I had fallen off a bit because I was trying to find a solution to the Meth problem. He was so reluctant to get help.
In my spiritual development, I have learned a lot about demons and their trickery. When someone opens themselves to demons, it means they have allowed a way for the demons to come in. When you're further away from the light of God, you are not protecting yourself. So, you can imagine what Meth or any drugs do, when you take them. It's like putting out an I'M OPEN...COME IN, sign.
Demons lie to you. They try and convince you to do horrible things. When you're on drugs, it makes it easy for them to control you. You're handing your soul over to them.
Most addicts say it's like you're possessed and have no control.
Demons are known for their foul mouths. Vile words. My fiance started calling me awful names and really hitting below the belt with things I am sensitive about. I never told him I was sensitive about these things. It was like he had inside information. Of course he did! The demons were feeding it to him. It was breaking me down. I was distraught to hear such cruelty from my love.
He would text me dark and disturbing things. Then wouldn't remember.
I know some of you are probably thinking it's the drugs. It is! To me, I replace the word drugs with demons. That's when you'll have the real story. Not that the person taking the drugs is innocent. They've allowed all of this to happen.
I could go on and on about the demonic side of it, but there's a blessed side too. The warfare was happening in my house but angels, God, Yeshua, and Our Lady were all there. Earlier in the relationship, I placed a little rosary under my pillow before I went to sleep. When I got up the next morning to make the bed, the rosary was under my fiance's pillow. It was amazing. Like it had been put there. I knew that rosary was for him so I gave it to him.
One day he was being crazy and he decided to throw my engagement ring off the balcony. I sat there watching him walk out on the balcony. He pulled his arm back as far as he could to chuck the ring. I saw the ring be pulled out of his fingers and drop to the floor. I think he felt something because he looked so shocked. I imagined an angel standing behind him, not allowing that to happen. I have my ring.
Another spiritual happening was when I was laying in bed. I had been in agony, praying for him repeatedly. I was scared and worried sick. I have an altar in my room and I had our picture on it. When I woke up that night and looked at the altar, there was a white mist coming from Mary's hands, over the picture. I was happily frightened in a good way. It brought me comfort.
There's a distinct difference when you feel the good spiritual peeps as opposed to the bad stuff.
I'm here to tell you how to protect yourself.
*First of all, let them go! I know it's hard to come to that realization, but it is important. When we give them food, a shower, a comfortable place...we are getting in the way of their lesson. We're getting in God's way of how he needs to help them. We cannot protect them. The best thing I have done so far is let him go. He is now humbling himself. I refuse to talk to him unless he's in rehab.
*Bless your space!! Demons cannot enter a blessed space unless you invite them in. Inviting the drug addict, invites them too. Demons like to see people a mess. You don't want to be around them nor do you want to be in conversation with them.
*Protect yourself spiritually. If you allow the addict to come over, don't let the demons in. Place red brick dust mixed with holy water, in an unbroken line across your door. Clean your doorways with ammonia (demons don't like ammonia) and then sprinkle with holy water. Make the sign of the cross everywhere.
*Sage your space to clear anything the addict left behind. The attack will stay if you don't demand it to leave.
*Stay in meditation and prayer. It will strengthen you and help see things clearly. Get the addict to wear a selenite crystal. This keeps demons and lower energy away. You wear one too.
I am more than happy to help you if you need it. I have found this much more helpful than naranon meeting and feeling hopeless. God gives you hope.
It's a crazy world these Meth addicts put us through. I have never been so angry in my life. I take each day to release all of that and sit with myself.
Let the addict be completly on his or her own. If you are housing them, feeding them, allowing the bad behavior...you are enabling a sick person. Let them hit hard. Allow the lesson from God. Don't interfere with God's lessons with his children. This IS how you help them.
Take care of you! 💜
Spiritual Warrior
